Reflection on 2016 / 回顧2016年

(English translation at the end of each Chinese paragraph)

第十年寫年度回顧!2015年回顧寫著:「一夜長大,迎接更成熟的自己」,那2016年的主題應該就是:「發掘不同面向的自己,並重新愛上自己」。

This is my 10th year writing the annual reflection. The theme for 2015 was “meeting a more mature version of myself,” and the theme for 2016 is “exploring different aspects of myself and falling in love with myself again.”

【年度亮點:HBS求學經歷】

因為語言障礙和文化差異,剛開學時確實面臨許多挫折。然而,一方面讓同學了解國際學生的困難,一方面積極參與、認真準備並貢獻由過去經驗帶來的獨特見解,終於漸入佳境。到學期末時,不僅課業上如魚得水、有許多思想上的進化,也和同學建立良好的友誼、分享許多生活細節,心裡對這樣的改變既感動又開心。

[Annual Highlight: Life at HBS]

Due to the language barrier and cultural difference, I struggled a lot in the beginning of the semester. As time goes by, people became more aware of the difficulties international students faced, while I also became more active in joining events and well prepared for classes, so things kept getting better. Looking back, I feel happy and proud of myself that I have gained life-changing learning experiences and a bunch of good friends to share my life with in this short time period.

【MBA留學申請】

只有自己最了解自己!編輯可以幫忙美化文件,但不可能寫成別人的故事。來波士頓後發現別人就是喜歡對社會保有熱情、嘗試做得不同的我,沒必要為迎合別人而改變。世上很多人告訴我們該怎麼做,但他們既不是我們、又可能對自身成功有錯誤解讀;倒不如讓我們相信自己、展現真實自我,命運自然會帶領我們前往該去的地方。

[MBA Application]

You are the only one who understands yourself! Editors can help you sharpen the language, but they cannot change your stories. My experiences in Boston reinforce the belief that people love me, the passionate and innovative person, and there is no need to change who I am. While there are many people telling us what to do, let’s believe in ourselves and show who we are. Life will lead us to where we belong to.

【顧問工作】

年初時,迎來人生中的第一次升遷!上半年在北京做個跨國專案:在客戶面前,從溫柔婉約台灣妹、轉變為強硬決斷女強人,在各種事情上和不同利益方斡旋,想來都不禁覺得好笑!夏天到一個非營利組織當志工(非常感謝接待單位給我機會),第一次驗證顧問專長確實可以運用在社會領域,對往後選擇這樣的道路也更有信心。

[Life at Consulting]

Had my first promotion this year! In H1, I worked on an international project in Beijing. My clients usually described me as a gentle and kind Taiwanese girl, but clients on this project often mentioned me with comments like “she’s very tough/decisive”… Positive thinking – I have learned a lot about coordinating among C-suites LOL! For the summer, I provided consultancy to a NGO. This was my first time applying consulting skills to NGOs, and now feel confident to replicate the model!

【家庭】

許多自我懷疑的時刻,都能感受到家人無盡的愛。無論多麼殘缺的自己,都能夠被好好愛著的感覺,是那麼幸福。來波士頓念書後,第一次開始思考未來生活的地點,才發現長大後個人目標與家庭目標的衝突是如此難解。雖然我還不知道未來會如何發展,但希望我能夠以更成熟的方式讓我們彼此了解、讓家人以我為傲。

[Family]

Whenever I have self-doubt, I can feel the endless love from my family. No matter how broken I am, they always love me without conditions. As I started to consider the location of my life in the future, I suddenly realized that the conflict between personal goals and family goals was very tough. Though I don’t know what will happen, hope I can deal with potential conflicts with maturity and make them feel proud of me.

【Habitat四川蓋房之旅】

從沒想過有天自己會學著搬磚、混泥漿、砌牆,無論大雨或烈日,就為了更理解世界一些。從Habitat的運作邏輯、國際組織在中國的困境、將理論與地區風俗融合的重要性、四川農村的美麗與哀愁到蓋房子的基礎知識,在塵土與汗水混合的氣味裡,慢慢對”down to earth”有了不同的想法。謝謝讓世界一天天變得更好的你們!

[Followed Habitat to Build Houses in Sichuan]

To understand the world a bit more, I joined the Habitat project to build houses in Sichuan. From moving bricks, mixing materials to building walls, I redefined the meaning of “down to earth.” In addition, I also learned the operational model of Habitat, the struggles of international NGOs in China, the importance of localization and the difficulties Sichuan was facing. Thank you for making the world better!

【大王小姐】

開始了自己的粉絲頁(https://www.facebook.com/missdawang) 和部落格(https://missdawang.wordpress.com/),雖然只有600+多位粉絲,但心裡覺得能有一個和別人分享想法的地方真的很棒!謝謝支持我的每位粉絲,新的一年也請多多指教:)

[Miss Dawang]

Started my own Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/missdawang) and blog (https://missdawang.wordpress.com/). Though I only have 600+ followers, feel blessed to have the opportunity to share thoughts with you! Thank you for your great support & look forward to more interaction with all of you in 2017!

【為自己發聲】

我們必需隨時準備好面對殘酷的世界,讓自己的聲音被聽見。雖然為自己奮鬥的出發點是自私的,但我相信這樣的行為對社會的影響往往是正面的:鼓勵弱勢的一方勇敢表達自我、提醒強勢的一方集體智慧的重要性。此外,每個人重視的事情不同,若有一方為求個人利益開啟討論,或許能夠找到互相滿足需求、卻極小化各自付出的雙贏策略。

[Fight for yourself]

We need to fight for ourselves to let our voice be heard. Though the reason of “fight for ourselves” is selfish, the impact to the community is positive – encourage the minority to express themselves while remind the majority of the value of collective intelligence. In addition, as everyone values different things, if someone initiates a discussion based on his/her interests, the group might find a solution that can meet everyone’s needs while minimize the sacrifice from each of them.

【身分認同與個人差異化】

在北京時,我學著從中國人的角度思考以融入中國社會;來波士頓後,我嘗試從美國人或其他國際學生的角度理解世界以融入美國社會。視角轉換讓我對身份認同產生不同的想法,也更理解「融入當地社會」不代表消除認同,而是以源自認同的個人特色作為差異化、在當地社會尋得一席之地。

[Identity and Differentiation]

While working in Beijing, I learned to think like a Chinese to do business in China. When studying in Boston, I tried to understand Americans and other international students to become a global citizen. The continuous changes of perspectives make me rethink my identity as well as my position in the society – I should keep my identity and use it as a differentiator to thrive in the local community.

【理想與務實間的平衡點】

有理想的人向大眾宣傳理念、絕不妥協;同時,社會中也需要願意傾聽各方聲音、使相關方利益達到一致的實踐者。然而,有理想的人往往對實踐者批評太多、協助太少,導致有能力者不願承擔或孤立無援,釀成社會空轉的悲劇。如果雙方都能理解少了另一方、自己的存在就沒有價值,或許我們能夠更務實地逐步實踐理想。

[The Balance between Idealism and Pragmatism]

Idealists promote their thoughts to the public and never compromise; in the meanwhile, pragmatists listen to the public and align the interests of stakeholders. However, idealists often criticize pragmatists a lot while providing limited support, leading to the situation that no one wants to take responsibilities anymore in the society. If idealists and pragmatists can understand that they cannot function without each other, then maybe we can have a more pragmatic approach to realize the ideal world.

【在下判斷前先理解脈絡】

當我們嘗試不在第一時間打分數、選擇持續觀察再做判斷時,或許會發現對方的言行舉止放入他的成長脈絡中,一切都顯得合情合理。我們絕對不需要認同對方,但只要能夠理解背後的因果,就足夠讓我們願意包容。給彼此多一點機會,在初期拿掉武斷的評價,或許會讓我們發現更美好的世界。

[Understand Context Before Make Judgement]

Don’t judge others too early. Try to understand the context, and we might realize that people’s particular behaviors actually come from certain personal experiences we have never had and could not fully understand. We don’t need to agree with others, but once we understand the causality behind their behaviors, we would be more willing to listen and be more inclusive. Give others one more chance, and we might find a better world.

【好好愛自己】

世界上充滿評論他人的人,在這樣的環境中人們逐漸失去自信、充滿不安全感。社會往往期待我們改變,卻從沒有人指責發出惡毒言論的人,為什麼他們要如此傷害別人?什麼時候我們才能接受這樣傻傻的、不美麗的、過度嚴肅的自己,然後大聲地說我們仍然熱愛生命?謝謝讓我看見自己的好、重新愛上自己的你們,你們徹底改變了我的生命!

[Love Ourselves]

Lots of people keep judging others, so people in this environment lose confidence and feel insecure. The society expects us to adjust based on the judgement, but no one stops those people from making mean comments. I’m wondering when we can finally accept who we are (the silly, not very beautiful and often too serious girl) and love our lives passionately? For people who make me appreciate myself more and love myself again, thank you so much for changing my life permanently!

【尋找一個讓人覺得舒服的人】

這些日子裡,認識來自世界各地、帶著不同故事的人們。雖然過程中我犯過無數的錯誤,但也在這些人眼裡重新認識了一個我從不曾了解的自己。縱使未來我們可能形同陌路,但謝謝你們教會我許多我不曾體驗的事情、讓這趟旅程充滿奇幻色彩。未來,我想放慢腳步,尋找一個讓我能夠做自己、相處覺得舒服的人。期待遇見你的那天!

[Find Someone I Feel Comfortable to be with]

These days, I met people from various countries with different stories. Though I made a lot of mistakes, I explored the hidden part of myself I didn’t understand before. We might become strangers again, but thank you for giving me this amazing journey to learn things I have never experienced. Going forward, I want to slow down and look for someone I feel comfortable to be with. Look forward to meeting you!

【擁有一個平衡的人生】

擁有一個平衡的人生的關鍵或許就在於「一致性」:如何達成「真實自我」、「自我認知」和「他人對我的認知」之間的一致性。在成長過程中,我們當然可以改變心意、調整人生優先順序,但關鍵在於:每個當下,我們的價值體系和行為舉止之間必須是一致的。唯有這樣,我們才能與自己和平共處、達到心靈平衡。

[Have a Balanced Life]

The key to live a balanced life is to have consistency among who you are, how you perceive yourself, and how others perceive you. You can definitely change your mind and set new criteria on the way, but at each moment, you need to be fully consistent in your values and actions to ultimately have inner peace and mental balance.

【溫柔而殘缺的人生】

無論多麼光鮮亮麗,我們的心底都深藏著不為人知的傷痕與困惑,將我們隔在遙遠相望的島上猶疑徘徊。在勇氣、挫敗、興奮、憂傷的循環中,我們或許不會變得更完整,但終將找到願意分享傷疤的人們、學習接納自己。那一份自在,或許不能形容為快樂,但已足夠溫柔暖和,讓我們繼續在這殘缺卻平靜的人生中,匍匐向前。

[Incomplete but Gentle]

No matter how happy and successful people look, everyone has some deep scars in his/her mind, separating him/her from others. In the cycle of courage, frustration, excitement and sadness, though we might not become more complete, we will find those who are willing to share scars. I might not call the comfortable feeling happiness, but it’s gentle enough to carry us to move forward in our incomplete lives. Warm and peaceful.

【了解全局才能安身立命】

要做策略規劃,就必需了解產業鏈發展趨勢;要做城市規劃,就必需了解區域發展趨勢;甚至在思考自己未來何去何從時,也都是基於對世界的理解而找到立足點。意義時常是在大局面中看著一步步落子而逐步清晰的,專注眼前的工作不一定能理解這件事情的意義何在,最終陷入庸碌的循環中耗損青春。

[Macro, not Micro]

To formulate strategies, consultants need to understand trends in industrial development; to develop cities, city planners need to understand trends in regional development; to position ourselves, we need to understand the world first and then identify the sweet spots. Think from a macro view rather than focus on current work, so we won’t miss the true meaning of things and be trapped in mediocrity.

【探索與平衡的兩難】

從小到大,我對自己做了各種千奇百怪的實驗以探索生命,有些幫助我擁有更好的生活,有些卻導致身體和心靈的疾病。雖然「探索」和「平衡」經常是互相衝突的,但唯有在持續探索的同時、保有生命的平衡,才是真實的自我。經由嘗試、學習進而達到優異,或許過程中有時困頓迷惘,但總有一天我們會在春暖花開處相遇、微笑。

[Exploration and Balance]

I did experiments on myself on so many things. Sometimes, it worked out and helped me optimize my life a bit. Sometimes, it made me sick physically and mentally. Exploration and balance can’t always get along with each other well, but without either of them, I won’t be me anymore. Try, learn and excel.

【使命感】

當我們鬆綁所有身體、心靈與道德的限制時,才發現生命中最重要的事情是使命感。在我們狂暴地追尋虛無、毀壞自己之前,想做大事的渴望會在懸崖前拉住我們的手、避免我們跌入深淵。自由是給那些具有理想抱負的人,而非那些失去信仰的幽魂,

[Sense of Mission]

When we remove physical, mental and ethical constraints, the only thing that matters is the sense of mission. Before we destroy ourselves by recklessly seeking for the emptiness, the desire to do something big grabs our arms in front of cliffs and stops us from falling apart. Freedom is for those who have good causes, not for those who lose believes.

【舞台表演 / Shows】
01. 恨嫁家族
02. La Nova 星際夢秀
03. 那次奮不顧身的愛情
04. 大紅燈籠高高掛
05. Cavalia 舞馬
06. 烏龍山伯爵
07. 大宅門
08. 戀愛的犀牛
09. My Fair Lady 窈窕淑女
10. Jersey Boys 澤西男孩
11. Nutcracker 胡桃鉗
12. Lion King 獅子王
【閱讀清單 / Reading Challenge】
01. 刺青
02. 羅生門
03. 假面告白
04. 奇怪ㄋㄟ台灣
05. 29張當票③:門簾外的人生鑑定
06. 單車失竊記
07. The Young Marshal 少帥
08. 沒有女人的男人們
09. 酒友, 飯友 / 深夜食堂16
10. Ferryman 擺渡人
11. The Storied Life of A.J. Fikry 島上書店
12. Margarettown 瑪格莉特小鎮
13. The Power of Habit 為什麼我們這樣生活,那樣工作
14. The Man with Compound Eyes 複眼人
15. The Last Lecture 最後的演講
16. Excellent Sheep 優秀的綿羊
17. The Age of Innocence 純真年代
18. 撒哈拉的故事
19. (Currently reading) The Last Days of Old Beijing 消失的老北京
20. (Currently reading) The Upside of Stress 輕鬆駕馭壓力
21. (Currently reading) Leaving Microsoft to Change the World
22. (Currently reading) The Omnivore’s Dilemma 雜食者的兩難

【旅行 / Travel】
1. 二月,日本,京都/金澤/合掌村,全家,點燈 [Feb, Japan, Kyoto/Kanasawa/Shirakawa-go, family, illumination]
2. 三月,阿聯酋,杜拜,自己,面試 [Mar, UAE, Dubai, solo, interview]
3. 四月,日本,東京,媽媽,賞櫻 [Apr, Japan, Tokyo, Mom, Cherry blossom]
4. 四月,日本,名古屋/高山,同事,高山祭/公司出遊 [Apr, Japan, Nagoya/Takayama, BCG, Takayama Festival/outing]
5. 五月,中國,北京,同事,長城腳下的公社/頤和安縵 [May, China, Beijing, BCG, Commune by the Great Wall/Aman Summer Palace]
6. 十一月,美國,波多黎各,HBS同學 [Nov, USA, Puerto Rico, HBS Sec(F)]
7. 十一月,加拿大,黃刀鎮,自己,極光 [Nov, Canada, Yellowknife, solo, Aurora]
8. 十二月,墨西哥,卡門,高中同學 [Dec, Mexico, Carmen, High school friend]

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